American Idol...

So I have never been a huge fan of American Idol. Lets face it I'm more of a movie type of person rather then a TV show person. I have watched it in the past but really only the auditions just because I like to laugh at all the silly people who think they can sing. So my sister is planing on watching it tonight, and invited one of our friends named Alden to watch it with us. His response to this was doesn't the bible say something about Idols. As I was sitting here attempting to do home work I mulled this statement over and he is right. To many people take American Idol way to seriously. You may even go as far as to say that people "worship" American Idol. just some food for thought because i don't want to do homework

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Ten things you wish you could say to 10 people (don't list names):

1. Your such a pain in the butt why don't you decide how you feel and stick with it stop hurting your family.
2. I wish things could just go back to how they where.
3. Stop depending on me so much it really hard on me and i'm only 19 i shouldn't have to deal with stuff like this.
4. I'm affraid.
5. Back off you don't even know the kid. he is amazing and Loves me.
6. I'm sorry I've treated you so badly. but thankyou for being paitent with me and waiting for me to see the errors of my ways.
7. I'm sorry for all the pain i have caused you someday i will return to you i just can't do it now.
8. I've messed up and i'm just affraid of you following in my footsteps.
9. Yeah I'm dating him so whats the big deal you can deal with it or i'll not deal with you.
10. Some days I'm just not sure if i'm really ready to take that step.

Nine things about yourself:

1. I would never let myself fully believe in a happy ending.
2. I hate the darker side of me.
3. I Love horses
4. I pretend to be big and tough but its all an act.
5. I would rather spend a night with my boyfriend then have a hundred dollars
6. I like making other people happy.
7. I'm affraid of riding horses that are not mine.
8. I don't like sugar anymore
9. I think more about my physical apperance then I used to.

Eight ways to win my heart:

1. Show me respect.
2. Be honest.
3. Care about others.
4. Love me for who I am
5. Help me to be better with out crittism
6. Have a great personality
7. Be Financially Smart
8. Tell me I'm special


Seven things that cross your mind a lot:

1. ........
2. ...
3. Work
4. Friends
5. School
6. Food
7. Money


Six things you wish you never have to do:

1. Get divorced
2. See those I love get divorced
3. Lose people I love
4. Wait for the one I love.
5. Fall off of a strange horse
6. See my horse die


Five turn-offs:

1. Ignorance
2. Cowboys
3. Irresponsibility
4. Tatoo's
5. Long Hair


Four turn-ons:

1. Scruff
2. Love for everything
3. Blue eyes
4. Dark Hair


Three wishes for your future:

1. Parents to be understanding and accepting
2. Find My dog
3. Happily Ever After



Two things you want to do before you die:

1. Forgiveness
2. Help Someone in a uncomprehendable Life changing Event



One possession you could not live without:

1. LOVE

Emptyness

There are many ways in which this word can be taken. I'm going to talk about the ones I feel myself.

So yesterday my sister and I where sitting on an empty bus and it felt so weird to be on a bus that empty. In china a bus that same size would easily have a hundred people on it. So as I was sitting there I felt kinda weird I dunno how to explain it.

There is an emptyness in my life. You may ask what would cause this? Well its the fact that i'm up here in provo and all i do is go to school or run earrands or sit here at home and work. there isn't really any varity in my life. I miss going to the barn and cleaning stalls and interacting with the people and animals there. Ok lets face it I really miss cleaning stalls. People think I'm crazy because I would rather clean stalls then about any other thing for work, but I love it and feel empty when I'm unable to do it.

Most people don't know I have a boy friend unless you have a facebook. He lives in St George while I'm up here going to school. And its really hard to be away from him i feel like a part of my heart was left in St George as it should be that way.

I guess I can't wait to go back home to St George and be with the one I love and care for.

Another Story Has Begun...

So life must forever move forward and so I find myself in Provo waiting to start another semester of school. You thought I wasn't going to go to school well I don't want to at all but life is going to move forward and if i dont get back into school now then I most likely will never go back. So here I am going to school at UVU. So far the people seem nice enough.